Desperate to Train Hard (& My first AA meeting!)

Well, I'll start with the meeting! I have to say, I was a tad nervous about going for several reasons. One is that though I've been telling the world about my problem, it's all been via internet and phone conversations. This was going to be face to face with real people-that's scary! Second, it's a small town and I was concerned about "what if I see them walking down the street?!"

Well, straight away I felt very comfortable; John attended with me so that took some of the pressure off. It's a really, super small group....last night there was only two other people! Both older gentlemen, but very nice and welcoming. I actually think I liked it this way better for the first time...I can't imagine walking into a room of 15 or 20 people that first night! They do get up to 7 or 8 people occasionally, it varies week to week; the guys I met last night are there every week though-and they both gave me their phone numbers if I feel the need to talk any time.

I can see how these meetings help for sure-I will be going back. One thing that has really stuck in my mind through research and the meeting is the matter of faith or a higher power. For me I am looking again at Buddhism as I have studied and practiced it off an on for years. I've talked briefly about meditation in this blog. So, I am once again going to delve into that-only really stick to it. It can only help! So that is number 7 for my plan of recovery.

Now, to the rest of my title! I mis training hard sooo much-and especially right now-I'm just not able to put my frustrations into my workout the way I'd like too. I've been pampering this damn pec/shoulder tear for months really and it's still niggling. I did attempt some super light incline presses and a bit of shoulder front and side raises (without doing anything above the head) and also some bicep curls. Still didn't get the proper pump I'm looking for-but I got more out of it than the circuit training I was trying to do. So, I'm going to ice and heat it this morning and see how she feels this arvo.

What I would love, and can't wait to get some day, is a punching bag! That is what I really want to get those frustrations out, see that's why I was drinking-I didn't have anything to punch! No, I'm totally kidding! But still what an awesome workout that would be hey! We are currently searching for a good deal on one...hopefully we'll find one soon!

Today will be my first test...I have a hair appointment and errands to run-which means I will be in town, alone. Normally-I would probably stop by the liquor store and pick up a fresh casque or box, if you will, of wine. That was my drug of choice...red wine. Today I will not be stopping for that box of wine. :-)

Cheers all! Have a fabulous day! And thank you again for all of the support-it means more than you will ever know!